I feel so left behind

Recently, a few people i know who are pretty close to my age 24 (now you know how old I am!), are ready to settle down or have a family. One guy I know just got married lately. Another guy, proposed romantically to his girlfriend (i was once good friends with this girl when we were in HS). One girl, my friend’s friend actually, just had her bachelorette party! Making her the first to get married in their group of friends. And other girl I know, is pregnant!

I am actually envious of them because one day I would like those to happen to me too at the right time. I really do feel left behind. It seems like their life is already in placed while mine is still like a puzzle.

I feel a little disappointed in myself because I haven’t been updating daily, but weekly.

On Thursday, my cousin and her family came to visit us in L.A. for the first time. It was their first time to ever step foot in the U.S.A. We toured them around LA, of course. They went to Griffith Observatory, Santa Monica Pier, Universal Studios, Citadel, Hollywood, Citadel Outlets, etc. Restaurants like BJ’s, Bubba Gump, some Korean bbq restaurant, Regent Inn, etc. Local popular spots we usually go to as a family. My dad, cousin, and my bf and I  took turns in touring them anywhere we could in the limited time they have. They flew today to Vegas. My family and I didn’t come, just them. Then later they will fly to San Francisco then fly from there back to the Philippines.

My boyfriend had been very helpful and generous with paying and driving. Yesterday morning, he left to Sacramento for his training and won’t be back until a month later.. sigh. Here we go again..

Here’s to friendship…

On the day of my mom’s birthday celebration, my gay friend and I were talking in text about what to do for that night. I said to ask our other friends if they are available and maybe we can hang out in their house. Then I didn’t reply because I got busy with picking up our family friends that don’t have a car and setting up the stuff at the place.

Then I texted him randomly, Hey we are here now. Come. I was thinking he couldn’t come because when I asked him before he said he didn’t want to. I just asked him to see maybe he changed his mind.

He replied, I thought that was dinner. 

I said, no lunch! 

Then he replied, Nvm. Mom cooked.

I got really annoyed so I said, Aw really? So mean.

I invited you a long time ago.

Arte mo. You always want to hang out with your socialite friends.

Daya mo.

This is more important than partying with your friends. family and friends get together.

He replied, Gaga. I really thought it was dinner. That’s why I asked what time because after, we go with friends later

I said, We are still here. Bilisan mo.

San ba mamaya.

Hoy

He said, Wala. Di sure. No reply from them. hays.

Then later at night, he said he’s gonna follow us at our friend’s house. An hour later, our friend S called him. In the phone call, he said he’s doing something. Then someone in the background said, Hes sucking my dick! Then S laughed and said, HAHAH. Suck him harder and get over here.

Then I texted him, Asan ka na. We starting.

Bilisan mo.

You’re missing out.

Our other friend called him and we realized he wasn’t coming anymore. I texted him, Gaga. You chose friends over a random guy? 

Messed out

Up*.

Now I texted him all these, drunk. LOL. I didn’t realize it until I am writing this now. I got home around 3am and I got a reply from him saying, SO!!!???

THEN, me being drunk, I got all heated up and started saying stuff in the phone POLITELY. Then he would reply RUDELY. It got me thinking HARD. I was already drunk and I was trying to understand what was going on exactly. I finally realized that maybe it wasn’t him but his friend who likes to use his cellphone and talk shit to me. So that friend and I kept going at it in text. I was all calm while the other was not. Then I got a message saying, it wasnt me. sorry minumura ko na sila. But it was already too late. My gay friend said, I got mad at you also because I felt really uninvited at that party… etc. (Before I kept reminding him about it and one time he said disgustingly that he didn’t want to go to a buffet and that he might have plans with other people.) I knocked out.

Then later that day when I sobered up.. I looked back at the exchanged messages then I replied saying stuff about our friendship wasn’t true to him, that I should let go of our friendship because he chose those friends, etc. I was crying the whole time I was telling him things. I didn’t want to lose him, but if he is happy with his gay friends and they can’t can’t accept our friendship, I would let him go. Then he replied things like he puts me in the forever friend file list and we are still gonna be friends no matter what. Hala sige Oh my, I cried like a river this time. He said he admits that he hasn’t been giving me his attention as a friend and that he spent so much time with them, etc. Sige I cried even more. Baha na It’s a flood now.

A couple of days later, he texted, U still mad.

I replied, check your fb.

I told him things about how I feel. Other than our misunderstanding it led to me and his friend, D. He and I had a misunderstanding in our first meeting and this person kept a grudge on me since then. We never saw each other either since that incident either. I told my gay friend that everything will completely be okay once his friends apologizes about sabotaging our friendship. He said he already told his friend about it and his friend hasn’t done anything about it yet… Right now, I deleted my gay friend in his first account in fb and his second account already blocked me even before I get to delete his first account. I just told him about this blocking issue and he said it wasn’t him and that I blocked him. I told him to check his block list and maybe his friend D, blocked me. He didn’t reply anymore

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Finally saw my love!

We were talking in text and he said if he got off, he would go straight to me. I couldn’t wait for the night to come. Later that night I tried calling him and texted him but he didn’t respond. I assumed he was still at work so I got really disappointed. I was really expecting him. Then my phone rang and it was him. He said he was on his way to his house and I said, what? I thought you’re coming here! He said, babe didn’t I tell you, I’m going home. I said, okay.. and I felt bummed out. He asked, did you get anything today? I mailed something for you and they said they delivered it already.. I said, huh? No. I didn’t get anything. Nobody told me anything. He said, babe why don’t you check your mail? I said, no I’ll check tomorrow. He said, babe just check it. So I came down and I saw his car parked but he was nowhere to be seen. Still on the phone, I said, babe you’re here! I see your car. Where are you? He said, what? That must be someone else’s car. I said, you’re the only one I know that owns that car in this neighborhood.. his car is a Camaro SS with some customization done. Babe! Just come out! I don’t see you! He wasn’t talking because he was hiding. And then he came out of nowhere and walked towards me. I was so happy to see him and so was he.